Speechless

Sun shining but my eyes a little gray. Headed to work, 30 degrees will work, I’m just hoping for a peaceful day. I try to focus, and clear my head. But all I can think about is someone who left. Someone I thought was right by my side, turned out to be another failure of mine. Failure to see the truth right in front of me. Failure to see that she never wanted me. Failure to fall back to reality. Now the earth hurts and I count the scars on me. The awkward holes inside of me that don’t grow or shrink. They remain. Remind. Of how large I felt. Then how small I shrunk. When your best laid plans come undone. And you watch them sail off underneath what should’ve been your setting sun. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive you for what you’ve done. Then again. I don’t think they even care.

One thought on “Speechless

  1. Very powerful and moving, My Friend! I hope you find it possible to forgive!! Remember the opposite of love is not hate, it’s “I Don’t Care”!! As long as your haven’t forgiven and let go you are still emotionally tied up and stressed out. Perhaps, if you look at the end of things like the Universe intervening to put you on a better path for your life so that you can find your true soulmate letting go would be easier to do??? A real emotional piece!!!

    You might have an interest in my post – https://godoggocafe.com/2018/12/10/and-then-i-remember/ that deals with some of these topics! Hope you have a great week, Dev!!!

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