Loathing

They say I don’t have many friends Because I’m weird Too odd to be included with us And though outsiders hardly put up a fuss To find out the source of grotesque hate Every time someone tries to stand for truth They’re shoved a heaping pile of revenge And told to eat hastily from a […]

A Heart Growing Darker

Two Advil on the countertop Jack underneath my pillow Hardcore synced to the TV And a few tattered verses stuck to the wall The sun shines too brightly My alarm blares too suddenly And everyone is asking me questions The bus ride is empty but I huddle in a corner Please god don’t let any […]

Deepest, Darkness Essence

Never mind the doubters on the outside I can hardly withstand the onslaught Of tremors in my head, the reminders All the things I’ve done and said wrong And each little nugget I tried to ignore It call comes back, it comes back to destroy Confidence, control, it’s laid to waste so fast I truly […]

On My Back

I carry my demons on my back Disguised as friends of my own mind I carry devils dressed as my lovers My exes, and my accomplices I carry vicious memories dazzled in delight When I was young, bad seemed glorious I etched my name through the victorious Misgivings of misdeeds for attention For some reason […]

What Have You Done?

Clamped shut By the eternal darkness The moon turns away from my pathway Even starlight fails to reach my feet Hell sweeps up the dust of faded memories They take shape and taunt Today and tomorrow hide in the absence Of honesty, of purity, and of sanity Mind and body crumble, unable to evade The […]

Supposed To Be

Slip down And say a prayer Say a prayer for me I’ve been warned before Talk and they’d find out Walk and they’d break me down My sounds vex their souls, it pains them To hear me speak out, against all odds At all costs Engines revving from a night’s long rest The daylight inspires […]

Fitting In

Fit right in Outside the depth The darkness of humanity Ignore the calamity, here’s a football game Check out this nice pass Demi Mawby’s nice rack Here’s some slips of useless green paper We call it cash But long time ago it was backed by gold Now it’s backed by nothing Worthless, yet we deceive […]

Pain And Indecision

I have memories endless And the words to detail them all Yet I pretend not to know my past Saying it was all awash And not worth the time to discuss The rains fall upon oft-walked ground Ipull out a drink, because only silence Can truly understand why I bleed The rain is cold, the […]

Half Hearted

Maybe summer’s finally here The sun shines long and hard Blades of grass tall and firm I see bees, young birds in the trees The clouds don’t hide the perfection Of a clear blue sky Or maybe I’m just losing consciousness The failed surgery on a heart long lost And lungs pitiful and putrid from […]

Vessel Of Troubled Thoughts

The method of my madness Is the confidence in blackness In a meadow of white flowers Some roses, some saps In a forest of unintelligible raps Small, handcrafted lines don’t stand a chance And they never gave me one, no endorsement But with patience and practice I absorbed it Now wherever I go I pen […]