Being Kept Alive

Surfing on waves of sin To find the gold at the end Of a world gone to hell and back And back again Sometimes the worst thing Is to do something They try to sell me diamond rings Ladies fake implants, and cash never ending But who’s getting big momma out the hood Why is […]

Reluctance

Specks of dust Cloud the perimeter Sweeping the chaos to a corner The negligent, the sinister Standing behind my own bars Like a hardened criminal I try to stay positive but the blood stays cynical Symbiotic with my need to destroy Is the molting of a teenage boy Into half man, half beast Trudging on […]

Split

Hiding from myself The memories boxed up and shipped far Into the recesses of time But when it’s cold, the shingles stir Dark clouds gather on the horizon Lightning shatters confidence and sways Funnel clouds evaporate conscious efforts I crack and crumble and admit my faults I fucked up so many times, why am I […]

What Words Bring

I had to get rid of me To find Me The suicidal depressions And disappointment brewed From pornographic misconceptions The boiling, bawling anger I couldn’t control Tearing myself from the flesh I called home Descending into the valley, alone I couldn’t come out until I figured how Embrace my unique in a cookie cutter world […]

Bored (Simply Writing About Autism)

I became bored Simply writing about autism I felt like every one else Just going on about the downfalls The misery, the mistakes It shouldn’t be ignored But it has its place I call it An Aspergian’s Chemical Romance Because I mix love with the acidic burn Of a childhood gone to waste The adoration […]

Taking Back My Life

White light Switch the day to night Black as whips Cross my skin I fight As breath is faint and light Cross my body go chains of steel I fail As hunger burns heavy and tight The American Dream is frail As the tears that take vision from my eyes From my family, from my […]

The Agony Inside

Cut me loose And let it free The agony inside of me I breathe you in, but it never comes out Shielded by anger and impenetrable doubt I’ve made a mess of me And in the shadows, I wonder about Which parts they see What do you ignore I want to be part of your […]

Check Please (I’m Tapping Out)

Are you happy now With the way I turned out You tricked me out, flipped me off And scorned me before the world Aren’t you delighted With the scars on my face, the crimson stains Skin dry with hunger for belonging Eyes wet with thirst for solace Tears homeless in a sanctuary of brothers I […]

Session Two

It’s business This pain against you Ensnared in the Dream, no one Can rescue you The end is near And so very far away With every day you age You get younger Dumber Lifeless as a pen on a shelf Waiting to be made into the abstract Motionless inside half beating heart Comatose Living and […]