writing my coda

the sentence broke offat the slightest quiverI can’t help but watch the shiverthis you can’t take, can’t shrug asideit didn’t mean to be an attackbut the barbs sink deep and latch onthere’s not a kiss, not a songthat can change this moment nowI try to notice the shadow behind your facebut there’s no use in […]

awaiting the punishment

I feel no heatI see no lightI hold no loveI sing no songI believe no truthI desire no tomorrowThere is bitterness withinI butter my bread with itevery time I take a breathThere is sickness deepinside my marrowBreak my neck and ingest itMy heart is always collapsedSo drink the blood and be filledWith everything I’ve tried […]

giving my body away

dig back the layerseach layer of pink skintill it turns to blue veinsthe richness of bloodflooding my nostrilsI stumbleand collapse to the floorcan you feel death knocking?I am ready to escapeweakness becomes my strengthI’m crawling towards the balconyhighway smog blinds my eyesthis vacation was supposed to helpnowI’ve been robbed and secludedleft with nothing butflaps of […]

Totally (Not) Fine

the monotonous hum of mechanical fan cold air pricks bare skin illuminated by the grace of sunlight spiderling revealing, disease prohibiting sunlight there’s a cobweb to my right an old friend drops in to say hello only seven legs, unfortunately , and I wonder how he chooses to press on marvelous I take to the […]

Her Fever Dream

eyes close flutter open in a wicked craze then close I am tired of living and why should I love again it is sent but not returned written and spoken but never kept inside lost in translation, there is no confirmation miserable silence and I wonder if I’m wasting my breath on someone who’s blind […]

Stop Putting Out, Give Out

When I stop putting out Will you stop coming back home My body’s more than a tunnel to him But to you, I’m simply a plate You eat your fill, then discard what you hate I hold my weight in my hands, am I ugly He adores my body, each shallow, every curve You hold […]